This page is for you .  I wanted to thank you for teaching me  how  to live agian. I went to MySpace looking to kill boredome and  what I found was my old self. It seems  over the yrs  , through all the heartaches , deep devotion to work , and thought's of how I had to always be politically correct, I lost myselff. Who I was , and what really made me happy. Then you came along . You showed me that  that people can laugh and have  fun at  any age. You stirred up all those  happy  thoughts and ways i used to live by yrs ago. Somehow  you have brought me out of my shell and  have  show me all about the man i wanna  be. Lynne . I wont badger you or  pressure you . As  you already know , my bussiness has done extemely well. My dreams are to retire in 6 yrs ..at 45 yrs old. I used to have a dream that there was a woman out there who's happiness would mean the world to me  , that I could call * my soulmate*  , a woman that I could share all the times in life with , good times , bad times, happy times , sad times.  Someone who's hand I could hold  and  share a loving peaceful secure feeling with . Someone that in both of our hearts we would feel truely loved and no that noone can come between us. Since I came to MySpace  a few ladies have wanted to get to know me , I let my heart go a lil to see . However always taking things with a grain of salt and not  fully trusting any of them,only to be proven right.

   Finally  along  comes Lynne~Marie , you entered my life when I expected it least. You tought me what friendship was all about , to trust , to live  , to laugh, and  all of it with no hidden agenda. I would watch as I would leave you comments and be laughing like a goofball at the thought of  how you would laugh at what i left. I would then log off and wonder when I would get an even more funny  comment back from you ..thinking to myself * this  lady is just wonderful , and will go to any extreme to make someone else laugh with her.Then  I would think who was this fantastic woman ? how do i get to know  her? would she let me into her world if I promised her  that I would give her 100% and live my life in  the excitement of  keeeping her happiness the  number one most important thing. The thing is I started to realise that ever day  step by step I was falling for you . Now I go to your page thinking   * I  love this woman , i wish she would open her heart to me ...because she has no clue how special she is to me . Then  finally I think ...  How could someone so wonderful be single?  how  have the men in her life been so foolish  to not see what a truely wonderful woman she is? 

   Lynne  , somehow you have  become  my best friend . I trust in  you 100% about anything and everything. You have told me that you're not interested in a relationship and that  you would love to keep our friendship. As much as it hurts my heart and  that I on a day to day basis I ask the Lord ..* Lord why did you answer my prayers  and then make her the one that wasn't  interested?*  ,  I still love you for who you are and appreciate you in my life at any capacity.  Last night i watched  a movie called  * The Bodyguard* with Whitney Houston and Kevin Kostner . It really opened my eyes alot. I realised that  fate is  not without  irony . In this movie they both  fell in love with one another  , yet realised that their lives were so different that in order to truely love one another , they had to let go of one another.

   Anyways to sum things up  , I have never ever in my life ..even in my marriage  ..have i ever fallen so deeply for one woman as I have for you . However , I respect how you feel about it all . I know that I'm  * in love* with you  but I am willing to let go and suppress how I feel about you , in order to give you  what your truely desire, and maintain a great friendship with you.

All I ask  is  for your happiness and freindship in return ...  and to always know ...............................................................................      I LOVE YOU LYNNE~MARIE  ....         Tommy

 

  when the day is  gone ,

and there's only MySpace to do ...

You know that I will be  here..

Just a shout away for you.

   In Your hard times Lynne~Marie,
I shall comfort you with all I have in me.
You can take my hand
and find your strength again,

  There's no need to frown,
I will make you smile again.
Open up you heart,
I will always be your friend.

   At times i fear ,

that one day you will dissapear.

So this is my only chance to start,

to show you what's in Tommy's heart.

I sit and think about my life,

hoping that one day You'd be my wife.

   I knew the dreams I had from the start,

will be the dreams that crush my heart.

one day you will leave MySpace and move on..

and i will realise all me fears .

That will be the day ....

I cry my tears .

 

   Tommy

Because when the day comes that you move on , I want you to  always have somehing to remember me by and know that to one man ..you truely do mean the world.